There is one universal desire: to create a life more like the life you imagined.
KEY THOUGHT: Living your life (not the story that looks like your life) requires knowing who you want to be and what you value.
BUSIC THEMES: Open your eyes, Life is short, Start living, This is your time, This is your life, Who were you meant to be?
“Man lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies never having lived.” (Dalai Lama)
“I don’t want to get to the end of my life and find that I have just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well.” (Diane Ackerman)
“And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that counts. It’s the life in your years.” (Abraham Lincoln)
“I had woken up to the fact that my life no longer resembled me and that it was only going to get worse.” (Elizabeth Gilbert)
“You and you alone are the only person that can live the life that writes the story that you were meant to tell.” (Kerry Washington)
“Life passes by in about seven weeks, and if you are not paying attention and savoring it as it unfurls, you will wake up one day in deep regret. It’s much better to wake up now in deep regret, desperate not to waste more of your life obsessing and striving for meaningless crap.” (Anne Lamott)
I titled the next busic: Live Your Life. By this time, I had started to realize that my childhood programming, as well-intended and beneficial as it had been, was now getting in my way. That programming was causing me to constantly focus on the future and, therefore, be unable to live my life in the present.
At this point in my journey – since it was clear that my issues in accessing the present stemmed from what had been programmed into my mind – I did the only logical thing: I went into weekly therapy. In addition, since I was still the Type-A overachiever I had come to be, I closed up my educational development firm and went back to graduate school to get a degree in Counseling and Organizational Psychology. (If you still doubted that I was too driven to exceed all expectations, I trust this fact has finally changed your mind.)
I got some marginal results from my year of counseling, especially in issues with my family of origin. But I can’t say I got much from the masters in psychology. In my opinion, psychology, as a science, is still a fledgling trying to learn how to fly. So I quickly went back to my career in educational publishing.
However, I did get exposed to one concept that significantly altered my belief structures. That concept was called: Contingency Theory.
Contingency Theory came out of research done by a psychologist named Fred Fiedler. Fiedler did a massive study to determine the best style of leadership. His basic question was: Are people motivated to produce more widgets by bosses who are authoritative? (The take charge: “You go do this” type.) Or by bosses who are alliance builders? (The team approach: “We’re all in this together” type.) Many companies and many employees later, the answer was a resounding – it depends.
In very bad circumstances, where the company was about to go under or the time pressures were extreme, authoritative bosses were more effective. Likewise, in very good circumstances, where the market for widgets was exploding and everyone was getting big raises, authoritative bosses were also more effective. However, in the middle ground, when things were neither too bad nor too good, alliance-building bosses fared better.
Thus, Contingency Theory is in favor of flexibility and against having beliefs “preset” in advance. But the problem is that “presetness” is precisely what any original script is here to provide. Any original script, no matter what the childhood circumstances, set some traits as more beneficial than others. When in reality, it is the ability to stay flexible and choose traits appropriate to the circumstances that is better in the long run.
Contingency Theory convinced me that I needed to develop some previously undeveloped traits. (You obviously can’t chose to use traits that you don’t have.) Since my difficulty living in the present moment seemed to stem from overusing certain ingrained traits, any progress would require purposefully going against the grain and developing those previously under-utilized characteristics.
At this point, I started to think in terms of personality cross training. Since “personality cross training” is another term like busics that I made up, I’ll start with a definition of cross training. Here’s what Wikipedia says: “Often one particular activity works certain muscle groups, but not others; cross training aims to eliminate this imbalance… to overcome the shortcomings of one style by practicing another style which is strong in the appropriate area.”
What if the need for cross training the body, because of the inevitable, related shortcomings, also applied to the beliefs that were stored in my mind and had, therefore, come to make up my personality?
My life up to that point, for the reasons I disclosed before, had focused exclusively being seen as capable and considerate. In short, on PROVING and PLEASING.
PROVING – My overriding need to prove to others that I wasn’t handicapped led me to strive to exceed all expectations. One of my competitors once asked a Vice President at Macmillan why he outsourced so many projects to my development firm, and he had replied, “If I give it to Loretta, I know that it’s done.”
PLEASING – Likewise, because of my need to overcome the rejection I had experienced, my desire to please others had led me to become adept at being likable. I could get along with almost anybody while maintaining a nonjudgmental, optimistic perspective. Somebody once said, “You’ll never need Prosac, you are Prosac.”
But what if in order to grow – I needed to turn the valve the other way?
That’s what the concept of personality cross training suggested to me. I began to believe that while my previous qualities kept the world around me happy, it was those very attempts at proving and pleasing that were now getting in my way. I needed to cross train my personality and develop previously neglected traits if I had any hopes of living in the present.
Now if all of this seems extremely self-evident to you, let me assure you that it had been in no way self-evident to me. I had been programmed to believe very specific beliefs. And the idea of turning away from the very qualities that had kept me safe thus far brought up my ego’s critical voice. And that voice was both confused and panicked.
- “Being responsible and reliable (aka proving) is what has shown people what you can do despite your disabilities.”
- “Being cheerful and caring (aka pleasing) is what has led people to stop rejecting you.”
But my ego’s loudest complaint was:
- “You can’t go in the opposite direction because you have no idea how to do it, and you will definitely and most assuredly suck at it if you try!”
Clearly, my mind thought that going in the opposite direction from the traits I had built my life upon was neither sane nor safe. But I had finally convinced the one person that mattered – myself – that I had to try.
The songs in the Live Your Life busic playlist provided great support for my efforts. I found it comforting to know that many singers were also fighting the valiant fight to be themselves and live the life they valued. It was reassuring to have Kris Allen remind me, “Living doesn’t come first try. It takes a lifetime getting it right.” Or Bon Jovi declare in his inimitable style: “It’s my life. It’s now or never; I ain’t gonna live forever. I just wanna live while I’m alive.”
I had finally concluded that I needed to use the concept of personality cross training to turn the valve the other way. I needed to rewrite my beliefs that striving for perfection (to prove what I could do) and performing (to please others) were necessary to prevent me from being looked on as inferior and rejected. Otherwise, those beliefs would continue to prevent me from living my present life, which was indeed the only life I had left to live.
3. Live Your Life
Called Out in the Dark – Snow Patrol
- “We are listening – And we’re not blind – This is your life – This is your time.”
If every eye is meant to be “aimed on a different star,” what is your life’s star? The song contends that we are all “semaphores,” communicators who send messages using flags. What message is your life supposed to be expressing?
Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) – Green Day
- “It’s something unpredictable – But in the end it’s right – I hope you had the time of your life.”
What does the phrase “the time of your life” mean? Does the phrase also remind you that “the time of your life” is finite? How does knowing that “time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go” impact how you choose to live?
I Lived – OneRepublic
- “I did it all – I owned every second that this world could give – I saw so many places, the things that I did – With every broken bone, I swear I lived.”
This song makes me want to shout, “I did it all!” When was the last time you felt, from either “broken bone” or “giving it all you had,” the preciousness of your life?
It’s My Life – Bon Jovi
- “It’s my life – It’s now or never – I ain’t gonna live forever – I just wanna live while I’m alive.”
The reference to Sinatra’s “My Way” encourages each of us to do it our way. How can the thought you “ain’t gonna live forever” help you live the life you’re meant to live?
It’s Your Life – Francesca Battistelli
- “Every day the choices you make – Say what you are and who
your heart beats for – It’s an open door – It’s your life.”
There are lots of songs titled: “It’s Your Life.” I chose this one because the questions are so pointed: “Are you who you always said you would be?” And “When did you forget, it’s your life?”
Life’s Too Short – Darius Rucker
- “Life’s too short to like it – So you better get to loving this living before it’s gone – Life’s too short.”
At some point, most people will undoubtedly feel that “Life’s too short.” The question is, as always, how can you access that feeling now, while you still have plenty of life left to live?
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Lifetime – Kris Allen
- “Living doesn’t come first try – It takes a lifetime getting it right.”
Kris Allen said that his Idol audition was a “last hurrah” before giving up on music. What have you learned over time about your “place in the world’s symphony”? What “melody” are you meant “to sing” with your life?
Live It Up – Colbie Caillat
- “No, I’m not afraid – No, I’m not afraid – I live it up, live it up.”
In this song, Caillat opens up about her stage fright: “I don’t know why I’m still afraid. It’s not like it was yesterday. I’m the one stopping me from all that I want to be.” What fears are holding you back from your “unstoppable”?
Live It Well – Switchfoot
- “Life is short – I wanna live it well – One life, one story to tell.”
Everyone gets only one shot at living – ”one life, one story to tell.” What story do you want your life to tell? Are you really “living for more than just funeral”?
Live With – Keith Urban
- “I’d rather drown dreaming than to stay dry hoping – I’d rather steal time than to have mine stolen – I’d rather live.”
The message of this song is clear from the title and the repeated play on words: “With the one life I get, I want a life I can live. Not just a life I can live with.” Which type of life are you living?
Living – Dierks Bentley
- “Some days you’re just breathin’ – Just trying to break even – Sometimes your heart’s pounding out of your chest – Sometimes it’s just beating.”
The lyrics go on to say, “Some days you just get by. Some days you’re just alive. But some days you’re living.” When was the last time you had days that you were really, truly living?
My List – Toby Keith
- “Start livin’, that’s the next thing on my list.”
If “start living” were added to your list, what activity would you make time for? Remember, as the British author Rose Macaulay said, “At the worst, a house unkept cannot be so distressing as a life unlived.”
Something More – Sugarland
- “Some believe in destiny, and some believe in fate – I believe that happiness is something we create – You best believe that I’m not gonna wait – ‘Cause there’s gotta be something more.”
This woman recognizes she’s “runnin’ out of gas and out of time.” If you can relate, what are you waiting for?
The Dash – Scotty McCreery
- “It’s always too soon –It’s always too fast … It ain’t about the numbers chiseled in concrete – It’s how they lived their lives – In the dash between.”
How are you spending your dash?
These Are the Days – Keith Urban
- “These are the days we will remember – These are the times that won’t come again – The highest of flames become an ember – And you gotta live ’em while you can.”
In this song, Grandma reminds: “What’s your hurry, boy, slow it down.” What are you missing because you don’t accept that “the highest of flame becomes an ember”?
These Are the Days – 10,000 Maniacs
- “These are days you’ll remember – Never before and never since I promise – Will the whole world be warm as this – And as you feel it, you’ll know it’s true that you are blessed and lucky.”
“These Are the Days” of our lives is a simple concept, but we seldom realize it. Accepting that fact can lead to feeling “blessed and lucky.” What helps you remember “These Are the Days”?
This Is Your Life – Newsboys
- “This is your life – Treat yourself right – Treat others right – Live like you know you should – This is your life.”
Let’s cut to the chase: “This is not the warm-up round. This is not a trial heat. It can’t be repeated when your time is gone.” The bridge asks: “You had a dream. Are you still dreaming or did you forget that heaven’s calling for your best shot?”
This Is Your Life – Switchfoot
- “Don’t close your eyes – This is your life and today is all you’ve got now – Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have.”
This song uses the metaphor of keeping your eyes open to symbolize being alive to your life. It asks two key questions: “This is your life. Are you who you want to be?” and “This is your life. Is it everything you dreamed that it would be?”
What Are You Waiting For? – Nickelback
- “You know you gotta give it your all – And don’t you be afraid if you fall – You’re only living once so tell me – What are you, what are you waiting for?”
I don’t have to write any questions for this song. “Are you waiting for a lightning strike? Are you waiting for the perfect night? Are you waiting till the time is right?” “Don’t you wanna learn to deal with fear? Don’t you wanna take the wheel and steer?” Well, do you?
85 – Andy Grammar
- “I don’t want to be 85 singing, ‘Oh, no, I think I missed it – I was chasing money.”
The key line comes late in the song: “I want a life I can’t afford to live without.” What aspects of the life you envisioned as a child can you now say you can’t afford to live without?
CONCLUSION
In the play, Our Town, Emily asks the Stage Manager the question that is at the root of the desire to live your life:
Emily: “Good-by, Grover’s Corners… Mama and Papa. Good-by to clocks ticking… and Mama’s sunflowers. And food and coffee. And new-ironed dresses and hot baths… and sleeping and waking up. Oh, earth you’re too wonderful for anybody to realize…
Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it? Every, every minute?”
Stage Manager: “No.”
This really is your life and these really are your days. No one else can live your life for you. No one else knows how much of that particular little life you are present for… but you do. And no one else can help you be more present in that life.
Being present for your life, by actually experiencing the moments of living it, will increase your desire to figure out what you want your life to be like. And once you know that, to work to create and live that life. As Trooper sang, “We’re here for a good time, not a long time. So have a good time. The sun can’t shine every day.”
SKELETON SITTING IN CHAIR IN DOCTOR’S OFFICE
DOCTOR SAYING, “IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER IF YOU HAD COME SOONER.
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Leisure Log
The concept of personality cross training had convinced me that to regain control of my life, I had to stop doing all the things that I believed I needed to do and start doing some of the things that I wanted to do. “Wanted” that is, if I had any hopes of creating the kind of life I hoped to live.
As a compulsive list maker, I did the only sensible thing: I added and tracked time for myself in my calendar. I called it a Leisure Log. I penciled in two hours on the weekend for myself without any agenda.
What I came to learn in that free time was that recreation is a necessary part of the process of re-creating yourself and developing the life you imagined. Only in open, unstructured time can you listen to your own particular passions freely and without the fetters of past beliefs. Such recreation is a critical ingredient to determining who you are and what you like to do. Fun is definitely a critical component of FUNctional.
OPERATING SYSTEM UPDATE
You Can Heal Your Life – Louise Hay
Louise Hay’s book was published back in the dark ages of 1984. This makes her a pioneer in what has become known as the mind-body connection. She was one of the early proponents of: “The thoughts we think and the words we speak create our experiences.” She became known as the queen of positive affirmations.
The role the mind plays in creating our life has become much more accepted in the forty years since Hay first penned those words. One phrase currently used to describe the mind’s role is “out picturing.” Human beings out picture what they currently believe in order to create their perceptions of the world and the lives they live.
I recently reread Hay’s book. And while some of her ideas stretch my mind further than it is currently able to bend, I found lots of helpful insights. The 50 million copies sold of You Can Heal Your Life aren’t all being used as doorstops. I also use her Power Thought Cards to kickstart each day. What type of thoughts are in the driver’s seat for your life?
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